Dear Long Weekend: We both know how needed you are right now. I don’t think I could work another full week right now even if I wanted to.
Dear Edd: Thanks for being the best chilli chef I ever did know. If I had to choose one meal for the rest of my life, your vegetarian chilli would be a top contender (along with a lifelong supply of chocolate and red wine x).
Dear Unrelenting Fear of Rejection: Stuff you and stuff all your mates too. This week I totally ignored your voice in the back of my head and I don’t even care if I get rejected (okay, i’ll care but not enough to stop me trying in the first place).
Dear Frozen Strawberries: Where the heck have you been all my life?
Dear 2015: Sorry for being a bit absent so far, in more ways than I can count. I promise to try harder to make the most of all of your days and use my diary more.
Dear Brothers: Happy Birthday to one of you, much love to all four of you, even when shit goes wrong. We all make mistakes.
Dear Coffee: I think I am slowly coming to the sad realisation that I’m not sure we can be best friends anymore. Don’t worry, the break up will be slow and gentle. I couldn’t handle it any other way.
Dear Merlin: So I haven’t officially introduced you yet but you have, without a doubt, been the best part of 2015 so far. Thanks for being such an incredible character and for meeting me after each and every crappy day, ready for cuddles and already purring. I already can’t imagine life without you. xx
Dear Flatmate: So we now have a dog for two weeks and although my sinuses hate you right now, the big labrador cuddles more than make up for it.
Dear Spring: I love you and your beautiful flowers. My hay fever hates you and your disgusting pollination. Why can’t we all just get along.
Dear Edd: Thank you for being so understanding of me and my crazy moods. Sometimes I still forget how amazing it is to be married to my best friend.
Dear Broken Dishwasher: You taunt me as I clean the dishes by hand. I hope that makes you feel better about yourself.
Dear Bill Bailey: Holy cheese you were hilarious. I don’t know how you play so many instruments so incredibly well but your Reggae dubstep remix of the Downton Abbey theme tune was pretty much the best thing ever.
Dear Body: I know, I know, I have abandoned you like Nemo abandoned his dad, totally unintentionally and I’m really sorry about it. Promise to start working on this soon.
Dear Body: Further to the above, if I try harder could you also try harder? My job involves talking non stop all day so when you decide to make me sound like Chewbacca with a pillow over his head, life becomes just a little more challenging.
Dear Lorde: You put on an amazing concert last weekend and I still get chills just thinking about it.
Dear Neighbour: Thanks for offering to keep our dog guest a secret from the landlord. You are way cooler than I was expecting.
Dear Sleep: I need more of you in my life right now.
Say Hi to Raja/Ranger
How do I put into words the sadness I have in my heart for losing you. How do I apologize enough for not being able to save you. How do I go from being a crazy cat lady to mourning the decision we had to make for you.
Everytime I think that life is going back to normal I see a reminder of your place in our household. A forgotten toy, a rogue cat treat that you were saving for later or just one of the many photos of you. Suddenly that feeling like I am choking on nothing returns and I feel like I will never move on.
I wish things had been different. I wish we had known what to expect. I wish we had had you in our lives for longer than the last two, short years.
Some people won’t understand what it is like to lose you but for me its like I have lost a member of my family, albeit a smaller, fluffier one than most. I won’t feel ashamed for missing you but I will be hopeful that eventually it will stop hurting so much.
I have so much to say but the words don’t come easy. I know you are better now and no longer in pain. I am glad that now we carry the pain instead whilst you move on. I am also glad I got to hold you for those last few moments of your short life.
Thank you. For inviting yourself into our lives. For sharing our meals even when we didn’t want to. For spending each night as part of our bedtime huddle and enjoying long weekend sleep ins. For taking up my instagram with endless photos of your gorgeous face. For being awake with me at night when I couldn’t sleep. For being the sassiest cat I knew and scaring away all the neighbors despite your tiny size. For being there for me when I felt alone or sad, even if you didn’t understand why I needed your cuddles. For annoying me when I chopped vegetables and then looking at me with disgust when I offered you some. For sticking your head in bags of Doritos. For watching cat videos on youtube and loving them almost as much as me. For sitting on my lap through endless hours of study and blogging even though there wasn’t much room under my desk. For being a part of lives that was so much bigger than I could have expected.
Thank you for reminding me to cherish each moment we have with our loved ones.
We won’t ever forget you
If you tame me, we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I will be unique
Dear Tilly: Thank you for your kisses. Thank you for forcing us to go on beautiful walks throughout Auckland. Thank you for your unconditional love for the family. Thank you for your amazing personality and dog like charm. I hope you are somewhere happy and safe. I’m sorry you had to leave this world so early. Dear Work: I am not excited to do my first Saturday shift and six day week. At all. Dear Edd: Thank you for spoiling me this week. And for understanding my foul mood after a crappy week even though I shouldn’t take it out on you. Also I don’t know how you made the kitchen look like normal again but you did and it was awesome…until I had another round of baking. Dear Burger Fuel: Stop being so tempting and such a short drive away. Dangerous. Dear Customers: I know sometimes you feel like screaming/swearing/crying/complaining at me but there is only so much I can take (apparently) before I break down at work (rather embarrassingly). Just be a little more organized and we wouldn’t have this problem. Dear Books: WHY MUST YOU BE SO SAD? Dear Ruby Woo: You are almost certainly the most beautiful red lipstick I have had the pleasure of owning. Welcome to the my little lipstick
horde collection Dear Sunday: A sleep in awaits and then a day with no plans (which is the best kind of day). Dear Lizzy: Keep on going through each week as it comes. Embrace the challenges and learn from the new. Crying is ok and sometimes imperative so just let it out every now and again. At the end of the week a Chanel perfume makes things feel (or smell) a lot better.
Dear Blog: I am sorry for my absence and happy to be home again (figuratively speaking). I hope that with a little more organization blogging can be a little more reliable and more enjoyable for me (and maybe even you). Dear Callie: You are without a doubt the weirdest, cutest, most loveliest cat who thinks she is a human. Don’t even realize that cats don’t actually have to clean themselves whilst in the shower. I rely on your antics for my daily dose of laughter. Dear Alt-J: You have been the soundtrack to my life recently. Thanks for being incredible. Dear Edd: Thank you for teaching me how to use our new camera and being the most patient person I know. Dear Cinnamon Scrolls: Please come out of the oven nice and fluffy so I can share you with work friends proudly. Dear Dishwwasher: One day you will enter my life and it will be a joyous occasion indeed. Dear Peppermint and Cinnamon tea: You are the reason I get past 3 pm and make it to the end of the day. Delicious. Dear Brother: Your life holds so much exciting potential right now. I know you will make decisions that we might not all agree on but these are how you grow as an individual and human being. Thank you for showing me how to be fearless and spontaneous. You know I will always be here for you if you need me. Dear Tim Tams: I really wish you were not quite so delicious. I have never and most likely never will look up how many calories one of you delicious morsels contains, ignorance is bliss. Dear Lizzy: I know you want to be the one people can rely on at work but sometimes you have to just step back and let some one else carry the pressure. Don’t feel responsible for everyone and just look after yourself. Health is our focus right now so just be a little selfish every now and again.
Dear Body: Please pull yourself together. I simply do not have the time or energy for being sick. If I start treating you a little better can you please behave and not be so difficult? That would be really cool… Dear Electricity: I forget how much I need you and then we spend a whole night without power…that was fun. Thank god for all the random candles around the place that I keep buying and never using. Dear Callie: In this freezing weather your 5am cuddles are only slightly annoying and mainly just warm and comforting. Carry on. Also I am glad your meow has magically returned…that was weird. Dear $3 beers: You make it extremely hard to stay sensible at work drinks. Dear Edd: Your lemon and honey’s are the best. This is why I married you. (Okay so there may have been a couple other reasons as well). Still not sure why you married me though haha. Dear Amazing Race: Thanks for making my day off work slightly less unpleasant. I was sad when my favorite team left though Dear My Kitchen Rules: Speaking of reality tv, what the heck am I to do when your grand finale finishes on Monday and I am left with no tv show to make the first three days of the week slightly bearable? You can’t take over our TVs for what feels like a year and then just up and leave…seems a little selfish if you ask me. Dear Strawberry Pavlova: You are rather delicious. Welcome to the tea family. Dear Auckland: Sometimes I forget how lovely this little big city really is. I must make more of effort to truly explore and enjoy you. However your random cold snap was a bit of a shock to the system…a bit of warning is all I ask for.
Dear Family: Thank you all for coming to my graduation and celebrating with me 4 years of stress and tears that resulted in my two degrees. The day would have meant nothing without the people there beside me, especially as I couldn’t have got through it without any of you. Thankyou for making me reach high and work hard to achieve goals. Dear Callie: Thankyou for the constant cuddles that have helped me through stressful university all nighters, repeated rejections from jobs, sleepless nights and the freezing cold that has now joined us. I love your fluffy butt more than you could understand (also more than most others think is normal…). Dear Sister: Happy birthday for Sunday you crazy, beautiful soul. Don’t ever lose the generosity, passion and stubbornness that makes you such a strong, independent woman. I am blessed to have you as a sister.Dear Cupcakes: I love you and all but after two nights if late-night baking I kind of never want to see another cupcake again….I think I just need some space. Dear Work: This may not be the most interesting or amazing job but I’m really enjoying it and the team I work with makes every day very bearable and even fun at times (gasp!). It’s nice to not dread coming to wok each day. Dear Soy Chai Latte: Ahh we return to our love affair now that winter approaches. I still wish you had caffeine…then you would be the perfect drink.
Dear New Job: I am so relieved and happy to have started you today!! The people are amazing, the work will be challenging and interesting and it will give us the funds to travel! It was a long and emotionally stressful job hunt but I’m just glad it’s over. Dear NZ comedy: There is something special and unique about it and I am very glad the comedy season is starting this week in NZ! I look forward to lots of laughs and good times and a celebration of our nation’s awkward and uniquely kiwi comedy! Dear Callie: you are the cutest! But we have to cut down on all the butter you keep getting your lovely paws on. Dear New Neighbours: I know you only just moved in today but trust me when I say that you better be quiet and polite and nice to my fur baby otherwise my wrath will know no bounds. BEWARE. Dear Apple Crumble: in this cooling weather you are a godsend. Delicious. Dear Brother: I hope you enjoy living away from home and experiencing some new things but don’t forget about all of us (and mum who is probably going insane as we speak because she loves us so much). Dear Apples: I had forgotten what a convenient and delicious breakfast you provided. Dear Life: Good things come to those who wait. Thank you for teaching me to be more patient and to be a stronger person who can cope with more rejection than I ever thought possible.
Dear Callie: Love you, you gorgeous gift wrapped bobtail bunny cat. Thank you for keeping us warm at night with your cuddles. Dear Job Interview:I think you went really well but so many people are being interviewed that I don’t have a whole lot of hope. Regardless, I really hope that come early next week I will be celebrating a new job!! Dear Children: Yay for school holidays and having to come up with inventive ways to keep you all busy and occupied. Dear Weather: It would help if you would cooperate by not pouring every day, pretty please? Dear Mum: Thank you for the extra work this week it was fun invigilating my first test with you! Dear World: I would really appreciate a day off. It’s been weeks and even though I’m not working full time I’m exhausted and would like a full day to do absolutely nada. Dear Tea: I missed you. Welcome back! The best thing about cold weather is days filled with pots of herbal teas. Dear NZ: Congratulations on passing the marriage equality bill! I hope other countries like our lovely neighbours follow suit!
Dear Feijoas: you are amazing incredible fruits and I am in heaven being able to bring a bag home from work with me most days!! I can’t wait to share some amazing feijoa recipes I have found on here! Dear movies: There is something so fun and comforting of sitting in a dark cinema with popcorn and ice cream that I don’t even really care what movie I happen to be watching. Having said that, Oblivion which I watched last night was rather enjoyable. Dear Edd: this week dragged on for us both but I enjoy our early mornings together before we head off for work, cuddling Callie and mentally preparing ourselves for the day ahead. Thanks for being my husband. Dear Mum: I’m so glad I’m not the only crazy one!! Your secret is safe with me! P.s I love working with you occasionally even if you are insane haha. Dear Callie: I love you, I love your nose, I love your bob tail and I love how now it is getting colder you are getting under the blankets. Your so cozy!! Dear Weekend: So relieved your are now upon us although I am NOT looking forward to the insane timetable of next week with three jobs and a job interview. Chaos!